..Shake The Heavens..

WELL -- School didn't work out. Girlfriend didn't work out. Sometimes it's hard to move forward when it seems like shits just slowing you down. Keep focused. You gotta prepare for tomorrow.

Well. It's been a long time since updating. I dunno really what to write, but I'm just up late and going through random things. Looks like school again the fall. Showtime. I'm not quitting anything, ever again.

I pretty much a different person then the guy who wrote in this journal last time.

You can bet the house on meee.

I hate losing shit. Especially when you can't find it no matter how hard you look.

People can talk, and people can think whatever they want. HOWEVER, this is whats best for me. And I know that, for a fact.

Hey..


Katie and I..


Are SIGNIFCANTLY..

MORE cool..

Then the rest of you..

Ok.... Bye!

Enter 3:30 AM.
Wake up, and instantly realize this is a good idea.
Go pee.
Look at my half-full gym bag.
Make it fully-full.
Think about why I compete.
Think about how it makes me happy.
Think about what makes me happy.
Think about how she makes me the happiest.
Go to Alex's.
Go to Brampton.
Weigh-in.
Submit 4 fighters in a row.
Repeat process as desired.


I love you Katie Collins.

God, she makes me feel good. I want her and I to stay together for as long as she'll have me. It makes me so happy to think about us being together come August. It'll be an adventure, and won't always be easy. But will always be worth it. She helps me in more ways then any of you know. And I wouldn't trade the experiences I've had with her for the world. I know I sound dumb but she makes me so happy. I love her so much.

I go to Ottawa for four days tomorrow. I have an audition at Algonquin college. You wouldn't know though, cause I haven't studied anything I have since before my last audition 3 weeks ago. I don't really want to go, cause I have this problem. Where this girl is really important to me. And I'm going to miss her a lot. I feel like shit, and she sits in the hospital with me. She's brilliant, and I appreciate her so much. Ilovesyou.

I love her.. She's wild.

I have a Lazy eye, that I hate.. She doesn't care though. She's mine. I'm lucky.

I've been accepted into Humber and Fanshawe, fuckin' right!

Life is really good right now.

Tiff's birthday and eleven months with Tom. Yay!

My Granny is 100 today.

My girlfriend is spectacular. She makes me smile. Even though I have a lazy eye.

I dig life.

You're breakin' my heart here. Just trust me.

"i'm going to fuck with you, the way you fucked with me. "
k:everything is a dissapointment
m:Why am I a dissapointment?
k:I don't want to talk about it.
"I'm always getting caught.
i just don't want to get caught with this one."



How do I take this..?

Holy fuck.. I don't remember the last time I worked so hard for something.. Betcha didn't think I could do it eh? Don't worry, I did it. And I'm not fuckin' it up. ;)

Well. It has been particularly long since my last update. So here's one.

Well, since I really haven't posted since like November. I'll just talk about stuff...

My life has had some dramatic changes. But you wouldn't know it if you just looked at me. I think that I've grown up a little. And I think it's cause I'm 18. Never in my life has turning a year older effected me, until this year. I'm regarded as an adult. And it's kinda weird. I'm able to enter three-year- binding contracts. Which I've done. Not a good choice. And - Well - I dunno. Since society sees me as an adult. I've felt I need to act a little more like one. That - And I've realised that there isn't that much time left for school. all of my friends are all doing differant things. Tom and Brandon have recently started OYAP. And after this semester, everything is going to change. Friendships will be tested. To the max. Who will I keep a strong bond with? Maybe after I go to college next year, none of the friends I have will be my friends cause I'll loose contact? Well. Who knows. College is more stressful then I had imagined it being. I ussually don't let things stress me out. But since I've made the decision to go to school for Acting, and take my acting ordeal to the next level, I have to do well. Three monolouges is a lot more work then someone would realise. And It's even worse when one has to be Canadian. But I'm getting some assistance with that. I hope I do well on my auditions. You know, I hope that all my friends excel in whatever they are attempting to do with they're life. And I hope that one of them would make up his god damn mind. =] I have a talent agent now. Although I haven't met her. Yeah-Yeah. Sounds dumb, But you don't actually meet YOUR agent until like two months into the contract. The company, however, is www.carolynsonline.com. Check it out. My pictures will be up within a couple weeks. Alexis Michaels, The woman who deals with all new talent, convinced my mother to let me become a registared model as well. Yikes. I dunno shit about modeling. Well, I dunno much about acting either - but at least I know something! Martial Arts are confusing as hell. Before the christmas break, Brandon and I trained like 4 or 5 days a week. I had nothing to train for. I just was. Now, there is a few Karate tournaments coming up. And I'm not training at all aside from going to classes. Classes are an hour and a half now, (starting tomorrow) which is pretty sweet. Also pretty sweet, is I'm a yellow belt. Which is both a good thing and bad thing. It's good for obvious reasons, I'm getting somewhere in Martial Arts. It sucks because I don't have the innocence of being a white belt, so being able to screw up was totally acceptable. And it's the awkward belt. At white, you don't know anything. At yellow, you kinda know something, and at orange, you're starting to become a competent martial artist. So, I'll have to train hard to get through this as quickly as I can. But, it will still take time. In my Dojo, there is Me, Keith, Alex, Brandon, and Matt recently joined. That is amazing, 5 close friends taking from the same school. I guess I'll cover the same topic I always cover. THe ladies. Well, there has been a lot of drama since Novemeber. Like. Extreme amounts. All surronding a couple girls. But that's fine. It's all been taking care of. I've recently found myself talking to some new girls. And hell, that doesn't happen often. Nothing exciting has happened with them yet. But who knows what will. Andrew and I almost completely stopped being friends. But we are WAY to in love with each other to pull that shit. Aint that right bro'? I'm in the show called "Back To The Eighties!" which is a play about, well, the 80's. It's based around North American pop sounds. Video Killed The Radio Star, Hey Mickey, Kids In America. Stuff like that. I think the show will be very fun. And the cast is pretty good. Aside from a few select parts, I'm rather content with who's who. Come see it at the end of April! I have my first song. And it's pretty fun. Haha. Anyways! That is that. Whew.. Kinda long. Snowday bitch!
~Matt Williams.

Yesterday was my birthday. It was very enjoyable. Thanks for everything everyone gave to me. I'll give a good post some day coming up.

..Martial Arts are getting tough..

ta?ha: working on ISU log. only message if it's important. says:
Break you?
Matt [] R.oc.T.no.L [] Othello Essay. Break.Me. [] says:
Break me.
ta?ha: working on ISU log. only message if it's important. says:
Break you. Impossible.

...Good Inspiration...

Bring that shit.. Pull out the stops.

"..But I ain't trippin I'm a player I ain't sweating him.."

Bonjour.

I had the Karate Tournament yesterday.. Which was overall a spectacular day.. I learned so much, and met a ton of people who know my sensai, and who I made friends with. I saw sooo much skill, and so much "flash" that I don't know what to do with myself. haha. We (Keith and I) competed in the 15-17 Novice Sparring division. Although in some divisions there were like 6-8 people. In our division there was only 4. Me, Keith, and a yellow belt, and a whitebelt Taekwondo student. Long story short, I know why I lost. The Taekwondo student beat Keith and I, I was given second place, and Keith was given third. The yellow belt got fourth. I have learned so much about Karate, from attending this event that I wouldn't trade it for the world. However, I was slightly disapointed when there were only three other competitors in our division. BUT, that's life. Haha. But hell, I did get a sweet ass plaque with my name on it. Haha.. Great time though. Next April, I compete again. In the 18-34 year old division. It should be good. Train Hard!

-Matt

Today is November 11th. Please pay your respects to those who gave us everything we have today..



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And, If you are in Hamilton, then you'll remember the day you faught Matt Williams and Keith McNeely.

Wish us luck.